sunnier color sunnier outlook

hic. hic. hic.

I have never had the hic ups this often. Ever. Until now. :)

It is beautiful outside. I spent yesterday feeling productive, mowing the lawns, watering the brand new roses, and running errands for Jason. And getting a pretty pink sunburn and some new bikini tan lines. I am feeling better this weekend. Still allergy ridden with the sneezing, runny rose, and itchy eyes, but its been three days since I last threw up. And this is the second morning that I have not felt nauseous (and its after eleven already!) So, great weather, some energy, no need to vomit in the near future, my life is looking up.

Which explains the change in colors. I wanted something that made me feel happy- and I think I found it. :)

Also, while I'm here, I should let you know I think I'm going to buy a crib. I found one, with a matching changing table at Target for 330 for the set! I've done a bit of looking around, and I think it will be worth the saved effort of sanding and repainting of the one I have. And because its an older style, I wouldn't be able to find a changing table to match. I am not set on it yet, but I am pretty sure that's what I will do. Andy mentioned she wanted to get the crib or changing table for me, so maybe I will have her look at them too and see what she thinks. :)

11:19, and I am going to take Jack to the lake. its been so nice out, and he hasn't been for a swim yet this year. Jason's taking my car to work in Boise every day, so I have the truck for him to get all wet in too! (Heather was right, I do feel like a different person, just because I feel better! Its great!)

eleven weeks four days

I am so close to feeling better I can almost taste it. In just another week I will feel like a brand new person, and have the energy to go and do things that need finished so that life can move on. Only days. Days that are dragging on mercilessly...

I'm excited about the things coming up though. May 27th is my next appointment, at thirteen weeks three days, and we will get to hear babys heart again. This time with Dr Anstine, so we will get to actually listen for a minute instead of being rushed like my ultrasound. I should be able to scedule the next ultrasound for just after my next appointment too, the one that will tell us if this baby is george or emma.

Anyway, I'm having trouble concentrating with all the jackhammering outside my back fence this morning, so I'm off. I'm finishing the first leg of a triathalon, and I'm already tired. :)

getting anxious

Waiting is not something I generally enjoy. Waiting for anything. But especially waiting when there is nothing I can do to make time go by faster. Eleven weeks on saturday, so I'm so close the finishing my first third, but so distracted by everything else going on.

The House.
I'm tired of the house. Its become like a "five" letter word to me sometimes. All I want, is for it to be over. And we need time for that to happen, and neither one of us has the time to do it! It would be frustrating were it the only thing going on, but it isnt. Baby has decided to make me sick now. And take my energy. And Jasons job is moving but they arent sure where to yet. And inching closer and closer is the trip to Guatemala that I really want to be excited about, but right now it is just one more thing on the agenda.

I just want one or two things to fall into place, so that I can feel more settled about all the rest of the shamble.

Just one or two things, then the world can explode agian.

preparing for family

Not the little baby kind, but the big scary parents and siblings and aunts and uncles and grandparents and inlaws kind. So to help relax, I am cleaning. I am cleaning the entire house, begining with the dresser and closets and laundry. Sorting out things that I will never wear, and things that I dont get to wear for a few monthes, and seasonal things that need put away.

The doctor appointment yesterday went really well. Dr Anstine was excited that I still want her to deliver for me, she is due in September and will be back just a week or two before I'm due. I will just have to see a few other doctors while she is gone.

We had my ultrasound first, and got to see baby move around. Just a little wiggle worm now, but in a few weeks baby will LOOK like a tiny baby. Baby's heartbeat is strong and fast, 176bpm, Jason thought that was the coolest thing ever. He's gotten more comfortable asking questions and talking to my doctor so that is nice.

Dr Anstine was excited about our trip to Guatemala, she didnt ask me to explain myself, or try to talk me out of going. So the static I got, was just coming from Merideth, my nurse. It was a nice bit of reasurance that this trip is the right thing to do. (My immunizations are tomorrow.)

The exciting news is that my next appointment after Guatemala, we will find out the sex of the baby. I dont have an appointment yet, but it should be the first or second week of July.

Alright, back to cleaning my house. Its been closed up for too long and needs a good airing out and cleaning. And I need to feel productive.

second ultrasound

I am leaving in fifteen minutes give or take to have my second ultrasound, and hopefully to get a good look at the little baby inside of me. Jason is meeting me there, then we are having an early lunch, and going back to see Dr Anstine at eleven thirty. I am excited. At six weeks we saw the polkadot that is baby, but they sceduled another to get a better view of development. The first was just to make sure that the baby was in my uterus.

Today we hear the heartbeat. Today we get to see its little head and tail. :) It will be a good day. And maybe I'll share the pictures too.

eight weeks and a day

I thought it might be a good idea to keep some sort of record of these few months, and I havent been doing a very good job in my journal, so I think this may help. Besides, I can always print it out when its over, and I'll have the journal just the same.

Some back information, I found out March 27th, just shy of a week before my surgery for endometriosis. I called and canceled the surgery, and made a different kind of appointment. My first appointment was the very next day, March 28th. Jason came with me, and was quite excited for the pregnancy to be confirmed by a doctor. (I think he didnt quite believe me before... :) I had an ultrasound on the 31st, (early, I know) to make sure that the pragnancy was in my uterus, and to see if I was carying twins because the Clomid I had been taking comes with a seven percent chance of multiples. It looks like there is just one baby, and all of my bits look good. I have another appointment on the 29th of April for both an ultrasound, and to meet with Dr Anstine. Jason will be there with me again, he wants to come to all of my appointments. And I'm glad. So thats the basics, dates, information, all that.

The most common question asked of a pregnant woman; "How are you feeling?"
Well, fine thanks. Though, a little tired of this particular questions. I feel like my stomach is in my throat, and like I could easily drink a gallon of water right now, if only water didnt make me want to be sick, and give me heartburn. I've had really good days, and really bad days, and days that go back and forth depending on wether I'm standing, or sitting down. (Standing is ALWAYS better. My stomach is where its supposed to be, and I can move more quickly towards a bin to be sick in if nessisary.)

Food, in general, is good. I enjoy it. And sometimes, I NEED it. But nothing disagrees with me, and there is nothing that I really crave (any more than I usually crave foods anyway). Mostly, I just eat a lot.

Life is still going on around this pregnancy. We are still working on the house, painting (yes, painting) and cleaning (with real cleaning products) and praying we pass everything soon as I have two weeks to be moved in before people plan to begin staying with us. Both mine, and Jasons families are coming for my graduation, and mine is staying with us. Jasons is staying with his aunt. Once that weekend is over, life is calm for a month, and then we leave for Guatemala June 19-29th. Those are the big plans on the calendar right now.

I am eating well, taking my vitamins, getting some exercise, and continueing to live life. God gave us this baby after two years of trying, and much worry, not so that I could curl up in a hole somewhere until November, but so I could be blessed, and continue to serve. He knew we were building a house, and that I would need to help complete it. He knew we had a trip planned and paid for to Guatemala, and I dont think He would want me to back out of these opportunities of service because I'm pregnant. He knew about the timing when this little one was created, and He will keep us safe and healthy through all of the plans that have been made. I know there are concerns about my choices, but I am trusting that I am held inside of God's will, and my choices are approved by Him. (Incase anyone was worried that I wasnt aware of my decisions, or how they affect the health of my baby, now they can relax. I have a very big God.)