"When I put the whole back of my skin and hair in the water that makes all the yuckies and dirt get out from behind my ears."
Emma.

we are having a baby

this is old news now, but there it is.

(i found out for certain november 26th, but i was pretty sure since the 16th.  i just knew. also i craved steak and hamburgers. big jucy burgers. queue iron deficiency. and nausea. but i didnt say anything untill we returned from our surprise thanksgiving trip to california and took a test. then we still didnt say anything until i broke out maternity clothes here, and we waited until we got to california to tell jasons family. i just thought it would be nice to tell them in person this time, since we could.  i let emma tell her grandma by giving her a christmas ornament about the baby. now fast forward three months...) 

i went searching through past pregnancy posts to see if i felt exhausted and like i was gaining buckets of weight at this point in the past and there is nothing. i can only assume that means i was just as tired.

so i am 16 weeks today and thought i should be honest with myself about these weeks. i remember in the past referring to the second trimester as the sham of pregnancy. its that part where you feel sick, and tired, and gain weight and dont feel pregnant, just bigger than usual. thats where im at. also, the last 4 weeks i have had headaches. at first it was nearly every afternoon and lasted through the night. they have lessened to about three times a week and they last between two hours and through the night.coffee helps. i stopped drinking it every day back in october, on a whim, so the headaches are not from deprivation. but combined with tylenol, and switching between my contacts and glasses every couple days, the coffee tends to stop the headaches from getting out of control.

last wednesday though, i felt the baby move. i have several times since then, its just fluttery motion sickness movements, but im sure its the baby. im excited to start feeling some real big movements.

i think i look about the same as i did around 20 weeks with emma, and between 16 and 20 weeks with gerogie.  probably because i gained so much weight in november, december and january. i lost a ton of weight after g was born (it took 8 months, and i lost more than 70 pounds)and ive gained a bit back since after my half marathon a year ago, so as soon as i got pregnant, my body just jumped up to my pre pregnancy weight with george. its been a big adjustment mentally, thats for sure. but it doesnt really matter how much i gain, i know how to take it off, and that i am capable.

i have my second appointment this afternoon. the next one i schedule will be with an ultrasound to tell me if this babe is a boy or a girl. i am excited to find out. i am hoping for a girl. there are just so many little boys in my life, id love to add another girl to that mix. i will get over it if its a boy. i cried at georgies ultrasound when i found out he was a boy, but i love that little boy. just took some getting over.

so thats the update. im always tired. i sleep ten hours a night (with multiple potty breaks and weird dreams) and im still tired. i have headaches, but the nausea is pretty much gone, and im not dizzy anymore.